Good and bad day for me.

Today started out horrible, but got much better by 8:00 a.m. I got a rhoid last night. How? I don't f'n know. I got them all the time when I was pregnant and when I was just fat. But now I'm eating so healthy and have lost weight and I still get one. WTF?!!!! The only thing I can think of is lately I dropped the bran buds and/or oatmeal from my morning routine and in it's place I made a yogurt shake. Dammit. Those yogurt shakes are perfect for the morning. My shake is 1/2 cup lowfat plain (i'm sick of non-fat w/the exception of milk) ice, bannana, almond extract, peanut butter and 2 TBS crushed flax seed) Oh well I'll save them for the afternoon. I made a peach, vanilla extract one for 3:00 pm today. Anyhow I woke up last night from a nightmare and in pain from my rhoid. I was running a 5k and my arse was killing me. What kind of crazy dream is that? So I got up at 1:30 am got ice, basically put it on my ass and fell asleep watching God knows what. I do feel much better now thank you.

The good news.....I got on the scale and weighed 146!!! I last saw this wonderful number on Sunday morning, but it went away. I think it's those lime/tequilla turkey breasts from Costco. They always help my scale. Let's just hope I can hold onto this until weigh day and beyond. Then it's one more pound to goal.

It's going to rain tonight so our run is out. I'm really bummed. If it's not a thunderstorm I think we'll still try it. But I'm not holding out my luck on that one.

I really need to lose this stomach! I'm an apple shape person. Which basically means I have slim hips and legs, but I have a huge stomach and big boobs. My boobs were 38D in January. I took measurements and they are now 36 (yea) I'm pretty sure I'm still a D, but am wearing a C sport bra when I run. They are definately smaller...thank God. I don't understand why girls get those huge fake boobs in. First they get in the way and try buying tops. It sucks. I'm always asking dh if her (whoever is walking by) boobs are bigger than mine. The answer is always no. I never realized how big I am (or how small everyone else is) I actually tried my friends bikini top b/c I thought our boobs were the same. My nipples fit in the cups. My stomach is much smaller than it was in January, but it is still fat. It's not a mushy fat either it's a hard fat. I think it's viseral fat which is basically like anothe organ. How am I going to get rid of it? Just keep running I guess. The weight can't come of my legs or hips. There doesn't seem to be any fat on my backside or outer thighs (maybe some on the inner thighs, but barely enough to pinch) Ugh.