Friday, August 31, 2007

RIP 2001-2007 and 199? -2007

(not the blog though. it's my therapy)

Orange Bear.

His story. My new car was having problems. I took it into the dealership with my then 1 year old. While waiting for what seemed like hours (and was) my son found Orange Bear in the kid's toy bin. He loved this Bear. I planned to distract him when we left so I wouldn't have a scene with me wrenching this bear from my son's tiny fingers. Maybe my husband could win a carnival toy just like the bear. It had to be a carnival toy b/c who the heck makes a bright orange bear? Well onto hour 2 at the dealership I decided that "yes we would steal this Orange Bear" That'll show them. Right?

Orange Bear became my son's favorite toy. Orange Bear went everywhere. He went to the grocery store, the ice cream store, the beach, camping, outside on the swings, in the stream, the washing machine and dryer. My husband would make Orange Bear talk and wrestle with our son and daughter. We never named him, b/c he was Orange Bear. It's the only name that suited him.

When we got a polaroid camera from Santa at Christmas time the first thing my son did was place Orange Bear on the couch and take his picture. Orange Bear had his picture taken in every room of the house.

Orange Bear was loved.

One day I found Orange Bear under my son's bed. I brought him out before bedtime and my son told me he doesn't sleep with him anymore. I was devasted. (My husband always puts the kids to bed so I was clueless)

Orange Bear would disappear for months at a time. Then he would appear all around the house. In the basement playroom, the den, under my daughter's bed, in our bedroom, the bathroom. He would just show up.

My youngest son doesn't really have a favorite stuffed animal. Whatever is nearest is "his" and "his" for the day. Recently he was walking around with Orange Bear. I thought that was nice. Orange Bear was being played with again.

This morning I came into the room and found this happening.




(notice the black nose is already gone)









Orange Bear has lost his eyes and nose. I can't let our newest "baby" play with Orange Bear forever. There are too many days when I found things hanging out her ass and dragging on the floor. There are too many surprises when I walk her. Somedays a little sock will come out with a bowel movement. Other days it's underwear. Last week it was flouresant green poop. Which is what happens when your dog eats a ball of blue playdough. (don't try this at home with any dog.....Chesapeake Bay Retrievers have a steel stomach)

Orange Bear has been to much a part of our family to end up as a bowel movement in our yard. If I must I will bury him.


On a truly sad and happy note:

Our faithful friend finally passed away. We didn't know how old you were. Some horrible person dropped you and your sister off on a busy road. You two were rescued by the Humane Society. We went there to find a dog. We wanted just one, but you two came together. We fell in love with both of you. She died Christmas Eve. You this past week.

He died outside in the yard. I got to say "goodbye" to him. He was a good dog. I have shed tears and will always remember him. Sleep well dear friend. Sleep well.

(May 2007 - 16 years old?)

Thursday, August 30, 2007

2 degrees of separation

I knew this day would happen. I'm not sure if I will keep posting.

A friend and neighbor sent over a link for a funny blog. I recognized the link. I've never been to this blog, but I've seen the name. I clicked over and checked out her links and a link I have is on her blog. It would be very easy for my neighbor to find me. Now, no big deal since I don't gossip to much on this blog.....but it's a little to close for me. I'm keeping my space open. I will "draft" many of my posts, including this one.

Hope to be back later.

p.s. Ran today.

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Welcome Home Daddy

Please bring them all home.

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Shut up!!!

Oh, yes there she is "Mom of the Year". There she is yelling at a 3 year old to shut up. Isn't she wonderful? NOT. All the parents in the YMCA think I'm a witch. Yes I told my kid to "SHUT UP" I refrained from dropping the F bomb in there. At one point a father was saying something about me ("that mom, that boy") to his kids. I know I'm not the only one with a kid that just pushes her buttons. He's that kid that older people look at and think "in my day we would get the leather strap out" He is uncontrollable. I would of left the Y, but my kids were trying out for swim team placement. Unfortuntely my son did not make it. He did make the mini team though.

I'm at my wits end with David. Really, truly at wits end. He won't let me hold his hand in parking lots. Almost got ran over the other day at Borders, and countless other times this past week. Thank God I'm a good sprinter b/c his running ability is amazing. (esp for those little legs) I carry him, but that's like carrying 40+ lbs of a wet seal with legs. All the kicking and yelling "you are hurting me back mommy" (i'm not trust me) Today in Costco he ran around like a nut case. (hence old man daggers) He cried and cried b/c T got to hold the ring pops. At home I can ignore tantrums or put him in his room. In public, not so much. I just don't know what to do anymore. I know this will pass, but when? I can not be that mom that tries to reason with a 3 year old. Sure get down to his level and talk quietly to him. Right. I does not work. He actually hit me in Costco. (good arm too) That got him a swack on the hand. Is that child abuse? I hope not.

I even ran today. Felt great this morning. Improved time by 30+ seconds, even with a very slow start. I didn't help my mood later in the day though.

It could be the season. Last August I was a mess mentally. September and fall are almost here. I can't wait for homework. I can't believe I just wrote that.


I hope the terrible 3's are over soon. One minute he's screaming the next he wants to lead me around the house holding my finger.

Now I have a funny picture of him (later that night) that I can not post. Even if I black out part of it. I come in the kitchen....he is chugging apple juice right out of the container and his pants are around his ankles. After he finishes he walks into the den with his pants around his ankles. Why bother with the final step of going potty. BUT he is wearing pants now.


Have a great weekend.