I'm a mess.
I can't function properly. I don't want to do anything. Thing is we have no food in the house and I have about 8 loads of wash to get to. The house is looking shabby also. I have no energy to do that much less think or write about it.
The one thing that has made me laugh is my four year old. Funny how he brings smiles and laughter to me in this bad time. Usually he drives me crazy. This morning he told me the girl on the other wii team got a homerun off him. He told me he was so mad that he was going to kick her. Then he walked back downstairs, I guess to kick her. The tv was still standing when I went to get him ready for church. That's a good thing.
Even with the help of my husband and my youngest I'm still a wreck. I know it will get better. I'm just obsessing about the unfairness of it all. I can't get past that. They were training me on Thursday for a new duty and they fire me on Friday. Their excuses were pathetic. I just want the honest truth. I don't have a good answer. I will never get a decent answer. If I knew I couldn't handle the job or was a total fuck up I would be sad, but "get it". I wasn't either one of those. Something happened Thursday afternoon. What the hell was it? I'm even madder that the owner didn't tell me himself and was such a coward that he didn't come into the office until after the both of us got canned. Then to infer that they are going to deny me unemployment benefits. Maybe that's why I'm a mess. Because I'm worried about that. I don't understand why they would deny me that. It would cost their unemployment account approx $300. It's not like it's their money being forcebly withdrawn from their checking account to pay me.
The audacity of it all floors me. Maybe he thinks it's some born-again christian moral code. Since he fired me he doesn't have to allow me to get unemployment. They lied in their business practices. What about the morality of that? It's ok because he got away with it? No one will know? It'll be fine because we (maybe) can do it honestly in a month. It's fine to lie for one month so you don't lose your income. Maybe he will have to lie for a year instead? Who knows.
I need to get moving. I need to keep busy. I need to work on that damn lemonade.
Fuck.
I can't function properly. I don't want to do anything. Thing is we have no food in the house and I have about 8 loads of wash to get to. The house is looking shabby also. I have no energy to do that much less think or write about it.
The one thing that has made me laugh is my four year old. Funny how he brings smiles and laughter to me in this bad time. Usually he drives me crazy. This morning he told me the girl on the other wii team got a homerun off him. He told me he was so mad that he was going to kick her. Then he walked back downstairs, I guess to kick her. The tv was still standing when I went to get him ready for church. That's a good thing.
Even with the help of my husband and my youngest I'm still a wreck. I know it will get better. I'm just obsessing about the unfairness of it all. I can't get past that. They were training me on Thursday for a new duty and they fire me on Friday. Their excuses were pathetic. I just want the honest truth. I don't have a good answer. I will never get a decent answer. If I knew I couldn't handle the job or was a total fuck up I would be sad, but "get it". I wasn't either one of those. Something happened Thursday afternoon. What the hell was it? I'm even madder that the owner didn't tell me himself and was such a coward that he didn't come into the office until after the both of us got canned. Then to infer that they are going to deny me unemployment benefits. Maybe that's why I'm a mess. Because I'm worried about that. I don't understand why they would deny me that. It would cost their unemployment account approx $300. It's not like it's their money being forcebly withdrawn from their checking account to pay me.
The audacity of it all floors me. Maybe he thinks it's some born-again christian moral code. Since he fired me he doesn't have to allow me to get unemployment. They lied in their business practices. What about the morality of that? It's ok because he got away with it? No one will know? It'll be fine because we (maybe) can do it honestly in a month. It's fine to lie for one month so you don't lose your income. Maybe he will have to lie for a year instead? Who knows.
I need to get moving. I need to keep busy. I need to work on that damn lemonade.
Fuck.
posted by m at
6:02 AM
3 Comments:
Oh shithouse!!
Now I get how you can walk a mile in my shoes literally!!
That is exactly what happened to me. My two local bosses got forced out of the business and within weeks I was forced out. And I was the same, from day one I had pointed out the flaws in their systems, their bank recs never actually reconciled with the cashbook, they had no consistencies and I think they were up to something dodgy.
Unfortunately for them we have great Employment laws in NZ and although I wasn't technically dismissed I was forced to resign as they took away all my computer access, took away all the filing systems (which I implemented by the fucken way!!) and then just had me sitting there doing nothing. It's called constructive dismissal here. I'm taken them to the Department of Labour.
Surely the USA has a similar system. You need a verbal warning then a written warning before you can be fired??
I know how tough it is though, we have no food or money either, I had to phone Mum and Dad for some money for food for the kids last week. It is shit house but things can only get better.
Thinking of you.
Lvoe Julesxx
Oh and I'm going to be making an anonymous call to the tax department to suggest an auditing of all their financial records.
Sorry about the job. My MIL was just fired (for no good reason) and got unemployment no problem. So, I hope that bit works out at least. Hugs.
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