BRIBERY

5lb weight gain. Haven't run in a week, but have done a LOT of walking. I'm waiting on my blood test results for my hypothyroid. God I hope they up my meds, b/c blah, blah, blah. I'm so sick of my thyroid as is everyone else.

I want to start running again. I'm hoping that I can pound out 3-4 miles on Saturday and Sunday. I'm trying not to lose my focus on running. I've seen it happen to other bloggers and I could not understand how they just stopped running. Now I'm starting to get it. It can be injury, to much time off, family etc. It's very easy to make excuses. Now that my skort was a tad bit tight yesterday the excuses are OUT! Walking is good and I do get a workout, but I want that runner's high. My ankles feel so weak anymore. Today I'm wearing high wedges (b/c I have to put in an appearance at my daughter's school and I don't want to look like hippie mom in my birks) Well anyhow my ankles are all wobbly. What I do for that child....ha, ha.

I have to bribe son #2. He will do anything for a train. Yesterday he was complaining about swimming lessons (i made the mistake of saying they were almost done b/c I'm sick of the whinning) I made a bet with him that if he can back float the length of the therapy pool without any help I will buy him a(nother) train. That kid swam the best ever. Did so awesome that we are out of 15 min private lessons and are now in 30 min semi-private lessons. He's is to smart for his (my) own good.

I hope everyone has a great memorial day weekend. I am such a loser that when I read Marci's blog the other day I was like crap....yesterday was our 9th wedding anniversary. We are doing something big for our 10th, but I completely forgot (as did he) about it. He tried to pull it off by saying we got married the Saturday before Memorial Day and we should celebrate it then. Come on!!! David was born the day after Easter 2004 that means we could celebrate his birthday anyday w/in a 4 week time frame depending on the moon's schedule that year.

It's time to get the 'ole American Flag out for the summer. Happy Memorial Day!

Not Found

Two of my blogger links on the side have dissappeared. I figured Flatman was going soon b/c his posts were far apart and the last post were pictures of a car trip. Jen (Craymerica) just vanished. What happened? Here she was training like crazy and she just removed her page. Maybe someone found her out. If I just vanish and you see "not found" that is what happened to me. I definately need to update the blog links b/c there are so many other blogs that I visit on a daily basis and look for inspiration from.

I've created a bike-o-maniac. My son wants to ride his bike everywhere. It has started to get on my nerves. (the nagging) BUT, I have created running partner #4 who will join running partner #3 ( his sister). I figure on some nights when I just want to knock out a couple miles I can have them bike while I run with running partner #5 in the stroller.

I only ran once last week, BUT I power walked 6x for an hour each time. I need to run more though.

I was trying to make an appointment with an Endocronolgist for my thyroid, but the wait on that is minimum 2 months. So instead I had to change my primary MD to an internist. (basically a doctor's doctor) My primary just wasn't addressing my thyroid at all. I think when my test results come in he looks at a range (lets say its 1.2 - 5.6) and I'm at 1.25 and he says "she's fine, she's in the range" and that's it. Well I don't want to be at the bottom of the range, or at the top. I want to be in the middle. Currently I have the following health issues:

Can NOT lose weight. Only can gain it with good eating and exercise
It's 12:40 and can barely keep my eyes open. I feel like I did when I had Gestational Diabetes.
I only wash my hair once a week. It is so damn dry that I consider a half bottle of conditioner a wash.
My skin is dry.
I'm losing all patience with my kids and husband.
Every morning when I get out of bed I am so stiff that I feel like a 75 year old.

This is NOT right. When I mentioned the above (with the exception of the stiffness b/c that is new) the nurse says "your levels are normal there is nothing I can do" I'm hoping this internist listens more to me and not some test that says I'm in range.

synopsis

I. Running
II. Food
III. Family

Running: Well I found a way to get out of my rut. It is a simple plan. Drive somewhere and run. While my kids play soccer I usually run around the trails at the fields. Running in a circle is about as much fun as watching paint dry. This past Tuesday running partner #1 decided to road run (where I ran my 10 mile training run...very hilly) Then my husband showed up early to watch the littlest so I went with her. The first 1.7 miles were slow since her foot isn't back normal after surgery in February (yeah, somehow the podiatrist f'd up that) On the way back there were some sprinkles and I decided to take off (a tempo run if you like) on some killer hills. I lost her and was pounding pavement. Then the skies opened up with thunder, lightning, wind and finally hail (i switched to 5k race speed at this point). I finally got back to the fields, hubby went to p/u up my friend on the parks edge (it was a killer storm) and I got my runner's high back. Yeah!!! I felt so good when I got home. I was exhausted, but got my spirit back. I have also have been doing some mean power walks with a new neighbor. This girl should actually power walk in a race, she is that good. I'm all huffing and puffing behind her on hills. She claims she can't run, but I doubt that. It's nice to comiserate with someone on food, weight, kids, husbands and tv shows. It's hard to talk all those topics on a run with someone. That just proves to me that my heart rate must be some obnoxious number while I run. Oh well.

Food: WTF. I can NOT lose weight. I seem to stay in the 145-148 weight range. It is so fricken frustrating. I eat healthy, and my weight is always the same. I hate trying to lose weight. It is one of the hardest things to do. I should just bite the bullet and head back to WW. I was a lifetime member, but things got so hectic that I couldn't find the 20 minutes to drive there once a month to get weighed. How lame! I don't know what to do. Every Monday I'm going on this big diet and I'm just not into it. I hate getting old and having slow metabolism (hypothyroidism) I know if I could drop 5-10lbs running would get so much easier. I'm hoping all the power walks (better for fat burning) will jump start something.

Family: My littlest. Ok He is so fricken cute and sometimes I just want to kill him. He has figured how to open the door to outside and last Sunday we found him halfway up the street on his Harley Big Wheel. Not that I blame him. He is getting tubes in his ears in June. He has significant hearing loss (it's like he is underwater or in a bubble) Nobody can see water behind his ears, but something is blocking the sound. The Neurology visit went great. Diagnosed with

apraxia and is a normal, rambunctious little boy. No epilepsy, autism or anything crazy. They have him scheduled for an EEG (for zoning out) but I think that is b/c he doesn't hear well.

I'm training son #1 how to ride a 2 wheeler. My husband keeps saying he is not ready and I say "f that". I'm tired of him not being able to keep up with his sister and complaining about it. Guess what...he can ride a bike, but has absolutely no confidence. I promised him Gordon if he rode the bike all by himself from point a-b. He is smart b/c HE DID IT! Sometimes a little bribery goes a long way. I am so proud of him for doing it. Even better he is so excited about it. Life is good. (there is the joy!!)

My daughter is great. We are having some reading issues though. She is in the bottom reading class and we don't know if she will get promoted or assigned to second grade. We will find out next week which one it is. My father has offered to pay for a tutor, but dh and I think we can work with her over the summer. She's a day dreamer like her mother.

My husband is great. Still hasn't finished the laundry room project from December. We all went fishing with him one day and instead of walking to the pond closest to the car we had to walk a half mile on tick infested trails to get to the pond where we caught nothing. I got to see a snake slither away from us though. Nice. We have decided that son #2 is going to be the hunting/fishing buddy for dh. Though our daughter loves fishing too. T (child #2) , well fishing is boring. I agree completely on that point.

Need a laugh

Yeah right not posting...ha, ha, ha. This cracks me up.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dMH0bHeiRNg

I wish

I could post about all my long runs.
I could post about my oh so healthy eating.
I could post about my hill work & speed work.
I could post about all the long power walks I'm doing.

Nope I'm in a rut. Actually I doubt I will be posting much during the month of May. My littlest has more MD visits scheduled. I have an ENT on Monday, and Neurologist on Tuesday. If the ENT clears up the water behind his ears (that was discovered by the audiologist this week) then I have to go back to audio and get him retested. He has severe diaper rash, so I'm dealing with that also. I have to stay outside and let him run around with no diaper. Thank goodness there are no known perv's on my street. His brother and sister thinks it's hysterical. He does have the cutest little butt you have ever seen. I'd post butt pic's, but then that would be considered porn by the religious right and then I would be in jail and be the neighborhood perv.

So that's about it. Medical Doctors, diaper rash soccer and swimming. As a close friend of mine would say "where's the joy?"

Out, in and injuries

I saw a dead head sticker on a ...... mini van and it made me smile today. Someone is still feeling young!

I did not do my two scheduled runs this weekend. I did one run. 5 miles, 47 minutes, 9.20 pace on some hard hills. We stopped once for 30 + seconds so I could check my foot and she could get some disco going on her IPOD. I walked up 1/4 of the last hill because of my foot (AGAIN!) But I did 5 miles. Who knew I would be so happy with 5 miles? I've been complaining that I'm not in running form and my friend said I'm not nearly as bad as I think. She agrees that I'm not where I was in January (b/c I was kicking her ass at that time) but I'm almost there. Now I must say my friend is 20+lbs lighter than I am so me keeping up with her is nothing short of a miracle. I did not run on Sunday because I am a lightweight. I drank some Mike's hard on Saturday at a party and felt like crap all day Sunday. I ended up sleeping with David after the party b/c he was having night terrors and a two year old a adult in a twin bed is not relaxing.

My foot.

On my last two runs I have been experiencing searing pain on the ball of my left foot. It feels like my foot is on fire. I took my shoe off on the 5 mile run because I thought I would find my shoe full of blood. It was that bad. After searching google and finding the right words to describe my condition ("foot on fire" brings up a lot about fire walkers and firemen) I have diagnosed myself as having this. Yes it sucks. So my cute high heels (and they are all cute, let me tell you...I should take pictures of them) are completly, positively OUT. (unless i'm going to a party and will be sitting down for most of it) I'm wearing my birkenstocks and sneakers everywhere.

I bought some gel inserts for my sneakers and went for a run on Monday and I'm sorry to say that my foot caught on fire again. I'm going to order some bigger, better inserts online and go back to my super over pronator addidas shoes and see if that works any better. I went walking last night and my foot did not catch on fire. To be honest running is when the pain starts.

On a personal note I've become a miser. We dumped the p/u truck, got a small car...so instead of paying $50+ a week for gas we pay about $25. Ha...take that exxon (you bastards..like I would buy gas from your company anyway) I also hung up a new clothesline in our backyard. Our electric company just upped our rates 60%. It's a long story about how the bastards managed that one. I refuse to comply. My husband hates the clothesline. Thinks we look like rednecks (ok who's the one that hunts small game, drinks beer and wears plaid shirts...not ME!) and he somehow thinks we are the Rockerfellers or DuPonts with our money. We definately are not. Our clothes dried in less than an hour on the line. I'm so psyched. Now I won't hang up towels or underwear, and I will only hang clothes during the week so dh doesn't get pissy. We are also looking at a solar powered, asphalt roofing system. We might have to turn into the Rockerfeller's to purchase that, but in the end somewhere it would pay for itself. Probably like 20 some years...I don't know. But I would be sticking it to the man. Right?