I'M STILL HERE! DON'T LEAVE

I just got so sick and tired of the green and gray of my old blog. I finally added all my favorite blogs in and then tried to change the template and failed miserably. So I said "fuck it" and cut and pasted a whole new template. I'll add my favorite sites and blogs back on soon. This white just seems so much cheerier. I want to add a cool picture up top, but alas I'm not to pc savy and my beer is getting warm.

Ciao soon!

Whew.

142lbs today. The run last night was very hilly. I hate running down big hills. It's a shin killer. Going up the gigantic hills I feel like an shuffling, 80 year old lady. We ran for 36 min with a huge sprint at the end. My running partner who has always been slower than me is now equal to me. I think it's been the month training 2x a week on these monsters. She would never sprint at the end of our runs and we sprinted last night and were neck and neck. Bitch. LOL. When she gets her toe fixed she's going to kick my ass. ( i think I keep repeating that line)

I like my new socks. Much better than the cheapy ones I have been using. K is trying to get me into the $8 pair, but I put my money into bra tops and she puts her's into her socks. She wouldn't dream of paying $40 for a workout bra and I never dreamed I would pay $8 for peds. Next time I go to the running store I'm going to get the fancy socks and see what all the fuss is about. And why do these fancy socks only come in gray?

Did the gym this morning. 30 min on legs, core and arms. Very quick b/c I only have about 45-1 hour to work out. Since my shins are dead I decided it was time to get in the pool again. My bathing suit is getting to big. I'm losing the boobies. Soon I'll be buying those cute Victoria's Secret bras that make your boobs look bigger. Anyhow I love that first jump into the pool. I swam 850 yds in 17 minutes. I did take breaks every 100 yds so I'm not THAT slow. Did a freestyle sprint at the end and actually passed someone. yeah me! And I did 25yds of butterfly and did NOT drown. I'm not to sure how pretty it was. I love watching the olympic swimmers do that stroke. Anyhow I'm going to try to get in the pool at least 2x a month if not more.

I'm going to try to run 5-6 miles tomorrow. Or should I say run for 50-60 minutes tomorrow. Right now it's fall here and I'm loving it. Tomorrow summer is back....i put away the summer clothes yesterday and that's why summer came back.

Another neighbor story. My friend and neighbor decided she needs to lose weight. She told me she's not ready to exercise yet and got these great low carb bars at Costco and she is feeling "so good" and thinks they really work. I just want to scream.

Need organization quick

I am soooo not organized.

Packed my gym bag, was all set for weights (legs/arms) core work and a 20 minute swim. Took my 2nd to speech and then remembered I have no idea how long the day care center at the gym is open till. It's either 11 or 12 and it was 10:15 by the time I got out of speech. No cell phone or even a # to call. Fuck. I'm going to try to go tomorrow. Ugh I'm really pissed off that I didn't get to go...I actually visualized my swim the night before. I did get the hubman to take the baby to soccer with him tonight. I'm going to run with my partner while the girls play soccer. She figures we can get 4 miles in. I'm not to sure about that since there is one killer hill on the route, but what the hell at least I'll get another road run in.

Bought some running socks. Did not get the elite running socks b/c one pair is $8. I got 2 pair for $10. What a bargain? My running parter has the elite and swears by them, but I'll wait on those. Got another sports bra. I ended up with the 34. The 36 fit, but the 34 should keep me working out. Ok I can't use the actual 34" hooks b/c I like to breathe and not feel the top of my ribs, but it's better than being a 38.

I was checking out my neighbor that quit WW. She is back up to her usual weight. Swore she could do it on her own. I'm afraid not. She's nice, but she and her husband complain about everything. "ww should of been more detailed to me" "ewww you eat at that restaurant, we ate there once, 15 years ago and it sucked" "why hasn't my daughter learned to read in the 1st three weeks of kindergarten?" I could go on and on. Some people are never happy. Too bad.

I would love to go out and take pictures of this route we are doing today. I could get some pics that look about a 1/10 as nice of where Zara runs. Actually I pass two cool farmhouses. That's about it. No bodies of water, cows, or green pastures. Just one long hill and then into a neighborhood. At least there are no geese. Those things scare the shit out of me. They'll chase you down for a bread crumb. Actually there is a cool park I could run in...I could just throw a bag of bread at them and sprint away. Now there's a training session! Shit those bastards would probably catch me...bummer.

Well my list of things I had to do did NOT all get done. But I did get some homemade icecream out of the brownie troop meeting. So all is not wasted. I canNOT figure out what is wrong with my baby. These temper tantrums he throws are something else. We just sit there and watch him in awe. It really is fascinating. He keeps stomping his feet then he bangs his head against the dining room credenza knobs and then he would cry even harder (well it did look like it hurt) then do it again! I'm at a loss. The other two did not do this to the same extent. He's a great kid, and understands us, but will not talk. I have a call into the state to get him into speech therapy. Maybe because he can't communicate is the source of the tantrums. Though #2 did not do this.

Tops. I need tops. Fall has started to arrive and all I have are the big extra large sweaters. For the past yearS I have tried to hide my breasts and my always looking 4 months pregnant stomach. On Saturday I wore a skimpy black tight top and yesterday I had a skimpy, spaghetti strap top on also. I'm loving it! I think the last time I wore one of these type tops was in my 20s. I can't go all winter wearing spaghetti straps, but maybe for once I don't have to be hiding under a maternity tent either. I'm just amazed at how far I have come since January. I was checking out the skinny, exercise perfect mom last night at the brownie meeting and I'm starting to look almost like her in the body. With the exception that I am not perfect, I have real boobs (i swear hers are fake) and i'm shorter than her. Right now I'm at her "fat" weight. She thought she was fat at this weight, I think I'm fine at it.

Went to the gym today. Did the usual hiit session on the 'mill. My ususal 7.5 felt like nothing so I jacked it up to 8.6 and ended with a 9 on the sprints. Last heartrate check gave me 183. Whoa. I think my stomach is getting smaller. Can it be? I fricken hope so! I'm getting one of those big balls for home use. I think I can do more core at home while watching my favorite shows. Had to take a communal shower with this chick who; kept hocking lugies, making weird slapping noises...i'm not sure what was going on there...actually I really do NOT want to know. I do know that she is the cleanest person in the United States. I went in 5 min after her and was dressed and out the door and she was still showering. Ok I didn't wash my hair b/c it was looking pretty damn good for being in a pony tail while exercising. Some other lady was in the dressing room with me and after the 10th hock she say's "that is why I take my showers at home." We were cracking up.

Got a walk in at the soccer game. Found a great neighborhood to run in when I get into new weekend routes. Since I'm going by myself this Saturday I might try a whole new route. This ones got a lot of hills and valleys so it should be pretty good.

143+. All that beer, carb crazy eating yesterday and that delicious sundae I split with the three kids probably put it all there. Went into a coma when I came home from dinner yesterday. Hubby let me fall asleep on the couch. He knows when I indulge it takes a minimum of 24 hours of recouperation for me. He ends up being the good one and splitting a 12 pack+ with the Nascar gang.

Still felt like shit this morning. Ate one of my kellogg bars. No coffee today. I can't believe I'm still functioning. I'm taking #2 child to school and am going to start my run from there. Basically I'm doing the same run, but starting in the middle of it. Hoping to knock 5 miles out.

The 1/2 marathon. I'm leaning towards doing it. Why the fuck not huh? It will keep me running in the winter, I get to hang out with a friend that I only see on girls dinner nights and then I can say I did a 1/2 marathon. I'm still on the fence, but slowly falling off the "crazy" side. Hope this run goes well today. I need a good road run under my belt.

Later:

I ran 4.814 miles in 47.59.83 minutes. Why the hell couldn't I just do the other 0.2 miles? I don't know, but I was so tired after 2 quick sprints on the last mile. I know the heartrate shot up then. I tried to run on my toes and not my heels. That is hard shit. Anyhow it was an ok run. A couple times I decided I hate running and wanted to quit and other times I was all impressed with myself. Around mile 2ish I decided I was crazy to think I could do a 1/2marathon and at mile 4 I thought I can do it (if I get to walk every 5 miles) Well see. Glad I got it in.

Now I have to cook dinner, clean the house, figure out why the little guy is throwing tantrums, do wash, clean our bedroom, go to a brownie meeting, pack lunches, get the tuesday gym bag ready, get #2 juice before he turns into a pile of ashes, blah, blah, blah. Someday I'm going to work on this website and add my favorite blogs, somehow add a picture to the top and get the ugly green color off it. Someday is not today.

Blah.

140 lbs. I'm not sure how I got here. I'm wondering if it's muscle loss. I ran yesterday. Went for a 5 mile run and ended up doing a 5k. At least I got out there.

Today, I'm on a huge carbo, junk food eat crap day. I feel like shit after last nights party. I didn't eat much yesterday b/c I was so busy cleaning, making apps, drinks etc. I managed to drink about 8 beers last night. Of course I forgot all about chugging a few bottles of water with them. So today is a total food exercise loss day.

The party was fun. Tons of girls and lots of laughs. I have no idea how much people ordered. The host doesn't let you take catologs home and if you don't make up your mind that night you have to check out her website. I think that's a mistake on her part b/c I would rather look at a catolog than view this stuff over the internet. The host has pretty much done and tried all of her products. Told us what not to buy etc. She actually goes out in her vibrating panties and her husband has the remote. Crack me up. I think they are overpriced at $99 but who knows. Maybe I'm missing out on something. I wonder how many calories you burn while they are vibrating?

Well I'm taking the kids out for burgers and icecream. Tomorrow is back on good healthy food day and another run. Maybe all these carbs will help my run tomorrow.

Oh I watched a 1/2 marathon today on TV. Those people are amazing!!! The guys did it in under 61 min and the girls were about a 1:10. The Kenyan paced 4.33 on his 2nd to last mile. Can you even imagine?

Thanks Jennifer...though I still think I might be a little bit crazy. I told my husband about it and he said "do it, sounds like a good idea" Hmmm, is he crazy? Well he did marry me, so that's up for grabs.

I ran Wednesday night. I was going to flip the total route around Saturday morning. Either I'm tired of running the same route over, and over, and over and over and over again OR I find my stride at mile 3.5. I ran the last 2 miles slowish and I wasn't even tired or in pain. I probably could of ran further than 5 miles. I'm positively stumped on this development. Maybe I can run this 1/2 marathon. My husband told me I need to do sprints on the road, not the "fake" ones I'm doing on the mill. He said I need to be sprinting so fast that I don't land on my heels, just my toes. I'm not quite seeing it. I might Mr. Smarty pants advice on Monday

I was going to swim this morning. I've decided I can't go to the gym on Fridays. I have to take my 2nd to preschool at 9:00 and by the time I get to the gym, workout, shower etc I won't get to work until after 11:00. I'm going to have to try gym on Thursdays and put my son in their day care. I need to get back to the routine of gym days 2 days a week. That is the only weight lifting and core I get. My weight today was about 140ish. Which is good, but I really haven't been trying to lose weight recently. I hope it's not muscle loss. Well after the party on Saturday it will probably jump back up. I have so much crap to do before this party. Clean, clean, clean, laundry, run, make a shitload of Whors d'oeuvres (like my spelling?) etc. I can't wait for it to be over.

I was at the convenience store last night and there was this mom in front of me (30ish) and she is wearing a belly shirt. She had a nice belly, but I thought she looked like an idiot. This wasn't a little splash of skin, I saw at least 3 inches. My neighbor wears the belly shirts, but only shows about an inch. Am I becoming a prude in my old age? I hope not.

oh no....

Bons: So Mary, do you want to do a half marathon in March? We would start training January 1st.
Mary: That's 13 miles right?
Bons: Yep.
Mary: Hmmm, let me think about it. Talk to me Saturday night at the party.

Am I fucking nuts? I'm hoping to run 4 maybe 5 miles tonight with a lugie in my throat. How the heck am I going to train for a half marathon? I was hoping to maybe be able to do a 10 mile race next year at the beach. Maybe a 6k in June. 13 miles by March. I'm going to be the fatest (not fastest) one there. At least it will be cold so I can hide this tumor, stomach thingy.

I have lost my mind even contemplating this.

I need to

Hock a luggie! Gross yes, but a necessity. My allergies (that I got 3 years ago) are killing me. I don't think I have enought luge to hock.

Yesterday sucked and is over. I left work early, got home, turned the a/c to full blast and 2 hours later a cold front moved in and dh yelled at me b/c the house was so cold. I did get a weak walk in with the baby while the kids were at soccer practice.(note to self - don't wear cute flip flops while walking for more than 10 minutes) I have to take a picture of 2 houses in this neighborhood that I walked through last night. They are probably in the $400,000 range. One has an unbuilt helicopter in the yard and the other has not chopped down a weed or tree saplings that are growing in the front yard in about 15 years. The other homes are so nice.

Going for a run tonight. ALONE! My normal running partner has a new gym night so she can't go. It's almost like she is there and vice versa b/c we won't stop running and doing gym b/c we don't want to get behind the other on exercise. I want to do 4+ miles. There is one huge downhill that I should walk on, but I might just run it and do the whole neighborhood. Then if I can do that I am getting a massage. That will be 5 miles and I am dying for a massage. It's all I can think about. Well that and a pedicure. My weight is steady which is shocking b/c of how much food I ate Monday night.

There were no pictures taken at the 5k. I emailed brightroom.com who were suppose to take pictures and they didn't make it down this year (first time in 3 years) I have no idea who that woman was taking all our pictures though.

I need to clean my refrigerator at least once a week. I found a bag on baby spinach that was mushy (never opened) a ton of fresh broccoli (dinner tonight) spaghetti o's that are turning green, bacon that is beige, the list goes on.

Overwhelmed

I feel crappy. Thank God the cycle started today. I hope that gets me out of this crappy mood and yecky feeling. I had the perfect run planned yesterday. Me, myself and my Ipod and one of my running partners saw me stretching and decided to join me. I had planned a slow 4 mile run and I ended up doing a disjointed crappy 3 mile run/walk. Note to self: either stretch inside or drive somewhere else and run.

Went out to dinner with some girlfriends last night. Ate like a pig. Actually I ate pretty good food (main course grilled flounder w/crab imperial, broccoli and baked potato) but I'm not used to eating a lot of food at a sitting. I had bread with butter, ceaser salad, some appetizer dip and this absolutely to die for desert. If I was a puker I would of put my finger in my mouth and been done with it when I got home. I have never felt so sick and looked so pregnant since the baby came. I sat my sick body on the couch and recovered in about 2 hours. My one friend is getting really fat too. Not fat healthy, but fat bloated. That's the kind of fat I was in January. (though she is a lot heavier than I ever was) I hope she gets to WW and the gym soon.

My allergies are killing me. I hope whatever is out there is gone soon. Doing any form of cardio about kills me anymore.

I'm having a sex-toy party on Saturday. Which basically means I'm going to end up spending tons of money at the liquor store, grocery store, cleaning my house like crazy so I can get a half priced whatever. I'm doing this for a friend (yes that the truth) She begged me to have one. She is having "problems" in the bedroom which a dildo is not going to cure. I've told her for over a year to talk to her gyno about it and she claims she keeps forgetting to do it. I'm not sure she realizes that they are not giving out increased sex drive pills at this party. With all my bitching about having to do this watch it be a great party. I wish I could get loaded that night, but the hubman is going to NASCAR on Sunday and I can't deal with the kids hungover. Anyhow I have to much to do on Sunday than waste it laying around the house.

I'm hoping to get my lone run in tomorrow. I'm going to swim on Friday too. I need to get back in that pool and get the cardio going. I think swimming helps my runs b/c it wears me out like running never has. Also I need the rest for my shins.

I'm going to eat you and your brother too!

And you are going to stink up my entire house!
I went to Costco friday and was admiring these huge monsters and the seafood guy talked me into trying them. I'm used to blue crabs from the Chesapeake Bay not these Southern Dungenous crabs. Actually they are much easier picking than the blue crabs and weren't bad.

The good news:
1. I made lifetime at Weight Watchers!!! It only took three tries, but I did it. I got my gold card and my little key charm. We talked about cravings vs urges. It was very appropriate considering the discusting eating behavior I had the other night. That was urges which is brought on by pms, stress, boredom etc. You can't find what you want to eat during an urge.
2. The poor run on Thursday is probably a combination of PMS and that I was coming down with a huge cold/allergies. I felt like crap around 8:30. Scratchy throat, congestions, stuffy head and of course I had no ny-quil. Slept like crap, felt like crap the next day. I still feel like crap today. I'm debating whether or not to go on a run. I have 15 min to decide b/c my running partner is coming down here soon. The question is "can I deal with her kicking my ass again?"

later:

I went running. She didn't kick my ass either. It was a slow run b/c it is so humid here. First mile was 11 min and the others were about the same. 5k in 34 min and we pretty much ran and little walked the last two miles. Usually I'm too tired to do that b/c I'm running so fast on the first 3 miles. All in all very good. I think I might try some slow long runs at least once a week.

Went to my first girls under 8 soccer game. Experienced true soccer moms, who are obnoxious bitches. Calm the f down people. Shit, it isn't a world championship game. Hell we don't even keep score. I'm that mom that just jumps up and down when they score a goal and yells "yea" I might tell my dd to keep focused on the ball, but the other team moms are like "cut her off!" etc.... The other soccer coach was an ass too. I wish I had a syringe of demerol b/c he needed some calming down. One mom there who has an older daughter told us that it only gets worse when they get up in the leagues. I'm not sure I'm cut out for this. With swim team you just sceam to go faster, not to drown/dunk the kid in the lane next to you.

Disturbing: I'm watching the Richard Sandrak (little Hercules) story on Discovery. This is one of the most discusting things I have seen. His parents are wacked and just looking at this kid do muscle poses is enough for me to hide my eyes. It is about as scary as Linda Blair in the Exorcist.

pms rants:

why am I moving landscaping rock from one side of the yard to the other? Why am I moving chopped tree stump mulch from one side of the yard to a tree? Why won't my 18 month old quit playing in the street and not the yard? Why is my husband drinking beer at the Octoberfest while I do this? Why is the OCTOBERfest in SEPTEMBER? Ok, I told him to go and he took the other two and his mom. They have the worst German food there ever. German beer sucks too. Actually moving this stuff gave some additional activity points than can be used for an ice cold one.

why is it the color on the Loreal box is not the color of my hair right now. It was suppose to turn a mediumish brown and it is black. I have not done step two yet, but that is just highlights. They are probably going to look stupid on this new black hair of mine. Well the hubby is happy b/c he did not marry a medium brown straight haired girl. I wonder where my ceramic iron is?

DAMMIT

I can't stop eating. It hit me this afternoon. You would of thought I swam 20 miles instead of 0 miles. I came home and ate the rest of last nights dinner, one beer, a lot of graham crackers, 2TBS of organic peanut butter, cream cheese, any goldfish that passed within my sight, I think there might have been an oreo that landed in my mouth, a skinny cow, a stale wheat thin (yeck) and if I had a stromboli or hoagie I would finish it right now along with the Breyers ice cream that is screaming my name in the freezer. I meant to cook the asparagus, but I was too lazy to do it. The day got shittier too.

Before the beer I decided I would run with my running partner while the girls played soccer. She has started running (3x) these huge hills by the fields. First you go down the hill (which I HATE) then up the hill. I could barely do it. It was like I never ran before. I kept walking and usually I'm always in the lead slowing down for her. I actually had to QUIT!!! I hate quitting. I felt like I smoked a pack of cigs and had a 5th of bourbon the night before. I haven't done road running since Sunday, but that can't be it. I did have the baby (22ish lbs) in the running stroller. Maybe that was it. Stroller running sucks, but I can do it. That had better of been the problem. We are going Saturday morning for a run and I better not be in the shape I was in tonight. I get so mad just thinking about it. She was cruising up the hill and I was panting in the back. I do not like that feeling.

It could be PMS. Speaking of....... this is hysterical:

Q: How many women with PMS does it take to change a light bulb?
A: One!!! ONLY ONE!!!! And do you know WHY?Because no one else in this house knows HOW to change a light bulb! They don't even know that thebulb is BURNED OUT!! They'd sit there in the dark for THREE DAYS before they figured it out!! And, once they figured it out, they wouldn't be able to find the light bulbs despite the fact they've been in the SAME CUPBOARD for the past 13 YEARS! But if they did, by some miracle of God, actually find the bulbs 2 DAYS LATER, the chair they dragged to stand on to change the STUPID light bulb would STILL BE IN THE SAME SPOT!!!!! AND UNDERNEATH IT WOULD BE THE WRAPPER THE STUPID LIGHT BULBS CAME IN!!! BECAUSE NO ONE EVER CARRIES OUT THE GARBAGE!!!! IT'S A WONDER WE HAVEN'T ALL SUFFOCATED FROM THE PILES OF GARBAGE THAT ARE A FOOT DEEP THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE HOUSE!! IT WOULD TAKE AN ARMY TO CLEAN THIS HOUSE! I'm sorry. What was your question?

obsession

Is obsession good or bad? I am obsessed with running better. I planned on going for some weights and a 20 min swim today, but that damn treadmill was calling me for speed intervals. I sweated my ass off for 20 minutes. I should of swam and then run tonight with the jogging stroller (even though I HATE running with that thing) It was all rainy and gross this morning so I decided to get a run in and now it's gorgeous outside. Well it's humid as hell, so maybe I'll walk the stroller around tonight. Ok, who the f am I kidding I'll be jogging and getting shin pain.

I didn't do as much core work as I wanted to. I was so tired from the 'mill. I can't keep complaining about this fat stomach if I'm not going to dedicate myself to getting in firmer. I need to get obsessed with core work. I did drop some of my leg work for awhile. I'm done with hip abductors. Now I am working on strength training my hamstrings. I read that runners have super strong quads and weak hamstrings which throws your kick/stride off.

Remember I was 142 on the scale? Yeah that scale was just playing a joke on me. He likes to do that every couple of months. Thinks it is funny to tease me. The weight is back to 144. Maybe I'll see 142 in a couple of weeks.

Taradise

ok. I'm waiting for Comedy Central and I end up watching this show with Tara Reid. This chick is a train wreck.......and she is going to crash soon and big. Her fake boobs will explode on impact. I can't stop watching it b/c she is such an idiot. It's like that bad movie you that sit through b/c you have to see the ending. She must of put on some pounds b/c when she is in her bikini her top never comes off...well, i'm sorry it does come down to show one of her enormous breasts. I don't think I have ever seen somebody so dumb. Oh great Paris Hilton is with her too. Could it get any worse? Thank God it's almost 11:00. I need Jon Stewart.

142?

WTF? I really think that the excessive eating this past weekend kinda wendie planned me. Usually I put on 3+lbs and then it takes 4 days to remove it.

I'm trying to figure a whole new workout schedule. Right now I'm group running on Saturdays and Sundays. I need to get at least one more day of just me running. It's just when to do it? I don't work on Monday's and Thursday's and I'm thinking Thursday is the day to do it so I can have a rest day. My gym days will be speed intervals on Tuesday and Friday will be swimming.

I can feel the little bit of super core work I did yesterday too. Let's just hope it does something soon to this mess I have going on.

My dd has swimming lessons tonight. I'm becoming one of those mom's that want their kid to excel in the parent's sport. (along with soccer mom i swore i wouldn't be this kind of mom) I really want her on swim team this summer. It was one of the best things I did as a kid. The lessons I learned in swimming/group sports still stick with me today. I went running the other night with my neighbor and some guy was behind us. (then he passed us) and my neighbor said I picked up my pace when I heard his feet behind me. That competitive edge has been drilled in me since 6 years of age. Even though I knew this guy was going to get ahead of us I had to run faster. Heck if she wasn't there I probably would of inserted a sprint in the run.

Later that night:

dd is learning the butterfly stroke. She's about as good as I am. I, by the way suck at it. Went on the scale at the gym....148lbs. I'm going to bring my hammer in next swim lesson and teach it a lesson.

still 143lbs. I can't believe I didn't gain weight after eating like a pig this weekend. I finally got back to the gym. I haven't been there in a week, which hasn't happened since I started working out. I also got the nerve to ask the fitness guy to show me core work. I've been doing what little I know for a couple of months and basically......yep i've been doing it all wrong. He showed me some new stuff to do for a month (I can only do about 5 reps on some equipment) then I have to go back to him and well get in to harder core.

The pool ho's are back. They finished painting the pool so all the old farts are back in MY locker room. I was spoiled for about a week. One chick was getting dressed to go home when I got there and after an hour of working out she was just finishing up! Ok she had a cast of some sort on her leg, but geesh.

I'm going to get back in that pool next week. It looks so clean. Hope this core work helps me on those flip turns so i'm not drowning and gasping for breath. Also I'm having some serious issues with my shins. I did sprints on the treadmill and last night my legs were killing me. I've googled everything I could about shin splints and I need to do other things than just stretch before and after. Yesterday the baby kicked my shins and it was sooo painful. Oh, and that's another story. I'm waiting for child services to appear at my door. The baby just wanted to play in the parking lot (of course not in the acres of green grass that were available to him) After chasing him into the street 4 times and hanging with him in the parking lot I finally sat down and everytime he tried to get past me I would grab his leg or tackle him. He was tired and pissed. To make a long story as short as possible, when the game was finally over these old people were shooting me daggers and when I drove away one of them got up and was checking out my license plate. If these ding bats call CPS I'm going to ... i don't know what I will do. I do know I did nothing wrong. If I were home and he were acting like that he would of been put in his crib for a nap. I have decided that I cannot watch my dd practice soccer. I'm going to have to bring the stroller and walk around for an hour with him. I could try running there, but it would be running on super hills (need to take pics of these things) back roads and neighborhoods. My running partner is running the super hills. She is going to kick my ass in November.

I did it!

Well it's over. I finally did one of my goals. I did a personal best too. 27.51 minutes. I could of had a better time if I didn't have such low self confidence that I placed myself in the back of the pack. I wasted about 30 seconds trying to get around all the slow people. It was an easier run than I'm used to b/c it was totally flat also. I still I feel that I could of pushed it "out" longer and faster at the end. I placed 5th in my age group and 132 out of 312 I would of placed 1st if I were in the 50 yr old age group. (that brings me back down to Earth) My girls and I made a mistake and ripped off our info from our #'s tag and they need that when you cross the finish line. Being newbies we didn't know this. The party afterward rocked. Free beer, bagels, sausge & cheese sandwiches, gogurt, fruit, nutri-grams bars etc. I ate like shit all weekend. Probably about 100 points (i'm not exaggerating either)

Camping was fun. I did the race on total lack of sleep though. Those air beds aren't the most comfy if your husband or anyone sleeps on it with you. At least it wasn't humid and buggy there. The beach was great. Awesome, scare your bikini bottoms off wave after wave. (love it!!!!) The guys surf fished and caught two blues that they ate. I, in the meantime ate half a bag of cool ranch doritos, rice krispie treats, hot dog and about 4 beers (not including the two I downed after the race) Camping is done for the year. It is such a pain to pack your entire house to go camping for the weekend. I have it down to a science and half the crap is already in tubs, but with the kids and the beach stuff we have to lug down it's just so much.

I can not wait until the next race (in November) I would like to take off 2 minutes from my time. If we keep hill training I think we can do it. We plan to revamp the whole training with sprints and time trials. I will explain later. At least the next race I will have some decent sleep. Oh and I am not a "serious, real runner". Did you know that? I sure didn't. I am only a real runner if I run 10 miles. Mmmm, hmmmm. Yep...just so you know that! Some dick was telling some other people that if he ran the 5k he would come in 7th overall (he was about 49) and only the real serious runners run the 10 miler. I told my husband this story after the race and he was like well if the rest of the 10milers ran the 5k this guy would come in the bottom 75%. Thank you sweetie! Man that arrogant guy pissed me off. He's lucky I wasn't PMSing b/c I am about as nasty as you can get.

I will post pictures when they come up on the website. Oh and some of those 10 milers (not the dick) were so cute. They sure don't run around here. We were practically drooling.

I ran Sunday night. It didn't feel as good as the race. My knees were killing me. I need to get to the gym on Tuesday and get back on schedule. Definately need to add swimming for cardio training. That usually wipes me out, but gets me on a high for a few hours. The outside runs can only be done on my days off b/c with soccer, kid swimming and the hour homework my first grader gets I just don't have the "summer time" anymore.

much better

Damn what the hell was that? The pink stuff worked. I was running to the bathroom every 1/2 hour. Yeck. Well I am better. Thank goodness.
Now, I've decided that I'm going to kick this girls ass on Saturday.

No seriously I checked her pace out she's 34 and did a 6.33 min pace in the 10 miler. Actually the 2 girls that beat her didn't look like they could kick her ass. They looked normal. I'll kick her ass in 2006. She looks like she should be in a Nike ad.

Went to the doctor today. He says I'm shrinking away and keep up the good work. He set me up for a patch. Told me if I could lose 20+lbs I can do anything. I've proven to him that I have great willpower. Man I love this man. I'm to see him in 10 weeks to see how everything is going. I like this, kinda like WW, I need accountability.

Well I've started the washing, cleaning and packing for camping. We are going to have great weather too. Not like this summer when it was camping in fly hell. It'll be nice to get one more dip in the ocean.

Hope everyone has a great weekend.

Ciao!

ARGH. I have a stomach virus! I'm chugging pink stuff like crazy! Why, why, why. I have to pack for camping, do soccer, organize games and snacks for soccer and somehow eat normal for the 5k. This sucks. Tomorrow I have to do 20 loads of laundry, make sure the baby has food for the weekend.

I need a truckload of Calgon.

Little knowns

Seven Things I Plan To Do Before I Die
Ride a horse on the beach in Donegal, Ireland -- did it.
Ride a Harley Davidson -- did it.
Ride a Hot Air Balloon -- did it.
See the pyramids -- did it.
Raise 3 decent children
Visit Alaska
Go back and visit New Zealand or go to Maui...

Seven Things I Can Do
Read any Harry Potter book in a day
Cook anything that is given to me. (with the exception of duck, I refuse to cook that)
Set-up Thomas the tank engine in tons of different ways.
Twirl fire batons
Cartwheels
Clean and gut a fish
Dive off a 15ft spring board w/no fear.

Seven Things I Can't Do
Reupolstery
Sing
Speak a foreign language (just a little dora spanish and "where is the bathroom")
Keep my kitchen floor spotless for 1 hour
bake desserts for hours on end (i so want to give my kids those Christmas cookies baking memories, let's face it, it is not going to happen)
make a decent snow man
Find the remote control on a daily basis.

Seven things that attract me to the opposite sex
Rugged look (a mans man-- no pretty boys need appy)
Clean cut
He must be tall
Sense of humor
Great with kids
Intelligence
Likes the outdoors

Seven Things I Say Most
Jesus, Mary & Joseph! (should of named my children this)
Fuck (i'm trying real hard to stop with this one)
I love you
Stop it you two.
David, NO!!!!
Leave the baby alone!
hi Sweetie.

Seven Celebrity Crushes
young paul newman
young harrison ford
Matthew McConaughey
Matthew Fox (jack on lost)
Josh Holloway (sawyer on lost)
George Clooney
Matt Damon

Compliments from Lori's website.

Went for a final run tonight. I felt really off. My time was 28+ minutes, which is good, but I was just dying. After this week I'm going to go for some slower longer runs. I'm tired of trying to beat my times. Anyhow that is not how to prepare for a 5k. Instead of doing hiit at they gym we need to incorporate into our sat and sunday runs.

Skipped the PTA meeting tonight. Got some grief from some of the moms. First it's going to be super packed and since it's a new school it will probably go on forever. The very first one in the summer they spent over an hour deciding whether to be a PTA or PTO. Of course while running through the neighborhoods tonight I see that all the Dad's are home. Why don't they have to go? Hmmmm?

What the heck are these dots? Oh well. Tomorrow is a non work day. I'm going to the local prison to take my bright blue ugly couch and ugly dark brown chair to get reupolstered. Dh and I broke on of the legs on the couch while loading it on his truck. I'm assuming the prisoners can fix that. I painted the ugly chair this week. I should take before and after pics of this ugly furniture. Ugh it's so gross. Dh wants to trash it and buy new furniture, but it's practically an antique. The couch is so long. It will look so much nicer not being bright blue. The chair is going to my daughter. Going to do it an fun pink pattern. Can't be to kiddy b/c I want her to still like it in her tweens, teens, college years etc.

I need to decide what to have for dinner tomorrow. Hoping there is some marinated turkey in the freezer, or some flank steak. Definately not in the mood for chicken.

quick post.

Ok. I have spent all this time to find the "mistake" i made and quess what I didn't make a mistake. My boss doesn't know what the hell is going on. ARGHHHH. Basically 8 hours wasted. No apology given for accusing me of messing up or stealing money.

Won't be posting much if all this week. To much going on with work, soccer, dinners, cleaning house, camping and all that.

Oh and I would like to apply for the head job of FEMA. Mr. Michael Brown (brownie to good 'ol georgie) qualifications were being the head of judges at Arabian horse shows. (even then they were trying to get rid of him b/c he sucked at that) My qualifications are: I'm a MOM. I advert disasters all the time. (well with the exception of the baby barrel-rolling down the basement steps when he was 10 months old...I defer to the husband on that one since I was handling about 2 other disasters at that time) I'm a registered republican (old school) and I can handle the pressure and dictate to subordinates. I can multi-task like all mom's do. I'm terrific at schedules and time management. I can even be like your friend Mr. Bolton (US/UN) and scream at people and chase them if you'd like that type of manager. I tend to do that on a certain day of the month. Some of my subordinates in past jobs feared me at times. You seem to like those types of people.

later that day: I withdraw my resume for the head of FEMA job. I can't seem to get my kids to the correct soccer fields at the right time. Completley f'd up. Son got there 1/2 hour early. Daughter got there 1/2 hour late. Not good. But somehow I am the soccer mom for my daughters team. I'm in deep people.

scene: My den.

Mom: Changing channel for her 4.5 yr old son and scratching her stomach at the same time.
Son: What's that .. pointing at mom's belly
Mom: I think I have a bug bite.
Son: No! What's that? Again pointing at stomach.
Mom: What's what?
Son: That! Where David came out?
Mom: What?
Son: I think another one is going to come out.
Mom: Makes Marge Simpson "growl" sound.

scene: Mom upstairs changing into running clothes b/c she is pissed off

Dad: What the heck are you wearing?
Mom: Do I look like an ass? Does this make my stomach look fat?
Dad: Nooooo, all you need is an orange flag and you can direct traffic.
Mom: Jumps on dad's bladder and sits down with all her stomach weight.
Dad: Argh...get off I have to go to the bathroom.
2 minutes later Dad tries to get "some".
15 sec later Dad fails to get "some".

ok, maybe it does look like construction
traffic control clothing. Oh, and you'd think I could/would windex the bathroom mirror before I took a picture. How the heck does the mirror get dirty up there?




So I went running. Did 28.19. Wasn't in feel good running mode. Even though the time is a personal best. I ran into a neighbor who used to be a competitve 5k runner. Gave me huge training tips. Basically I'm not going to improve the way I'm training. I will incorporate these tips after this 5k. This guy used to run 5 minute miles! Geesh.

Next week is going to be a bitch on working out and running. Work is going to suck. I seem to have made a huge mistake and somehow our bank says we have $10,000 less than what I say. Soccer starts. I am officially a soccer mom. The one thing in the world I didn't want to be when I grew up. I have the stupid club magnet on my car and all the gear that goes along with it. For 2 days I week I will be driving to different soccer fields and running around like an idiot trying to watch each kid practice. All along with my baby who wants to play soccer. If they had a team for 17 months old I would probably join...that's how crazy I am.

Later that night:

Dh and I got a babysitter and went on a date night. I got my body into a size 8 skirt!(not an Old Navy size 8 either!) Well the Talbots size 8 skirt i have does not fit me. I think the more expensive clothes are the real sizes. Then again this is progress b/c this skirt has not fit me since ... I don't know when. Anyhow the date was nice. Dh and I talked about running, kids, how good the food was, and what a dick I think bush is and how he thinks he is great. Then Notre Dame started to kick Pitt's ass in football. I hate Notre Dame. I'm Irish Catholic and I hate Notre Dame. I'm telling you I'm weird. I'm suppose to love this team like I love meat and potato's.

Ate like total crap for two days. Will write off as a cheat days and get back on program tomorrow!!!

143.2 Weigh-in at WW. My lowest yet. We went running last night. This time it was 3 of us. There are three families that are going camping next week and she is going to run the 5k with us. She wanted to get used to our pace. I did it in 32 min. Not a PR, but it was a good run. I would like to go on a run by myself this weekend to see if I can do around 29 min again. One funny thing happened on our run. We always leave our water bottles about 1/2 mile into the run at these mailboxes on a small country road that are next to dh's supervisor's house. Well when we got back (2.5 miles) to p/u up our water bottles he left each one of us a cold beer. So here we are running that last 1/2 mile with a water bottle in one hand and a cold one in another. People must think we are nuts. We ended up ditching the beer in my yard to complete the 5 mile route. Then I get all the beer for myself and dh when I get home to stretch.

My legs are killing me today. I hate running down hill. It's a bitch on the shins. I bought some insoles this morning. Hope they work.

Gas prices suck. If we weren't so into running this 5k I would blow off camping next weekend. It's about 100+ miles away. I am car-pooling with one family so that should help with the gas. I'm getting more pissed off about New Orleans and Mississipi. Our government (FEMA) included are such a bunch of dumb asses. I can't believe the situation is so out of control! This is the United States not some 3rd world country. People are being raped and murdered in the superdome. What the "F" is going on? I am transfixed by the news and basically I end up yelling at the TV half the time. I have nothing more to say, because it's just going to be a rant.

Musings

My gym: I've decided I like my gym. It's quite nice now that the pool is being painted, which means that there are no old people crowding up the locker room. I shouldn't be so mean, but it's like my private club. I wouldn't mind it so much but we have communal showers. I have no problem with being naked in front of people, but I'm enjoying the privacy. Also my gym is not lily white, yuppie, look at my fancy new clothes place. It's blacks, whites, puerto rico, etc...all doing their own thing. We have one of those fancy gyms near my house. They actually have one area with a red and green light. When the light goes to red you have to get off the machine and move to the next one. That's where all the super buff's work out. It's all pretty and chromy in that room. Too fancy for pumping muscle and sweating on a mill in my opinion. Oh and I have a free membership through work at my gym.

My SUV: I wish I had a hybrid. I used to have a Saturn. Then I had baby #3, and as any parent knows those car seats are huge and barely fit in a regular car. We actually tried all three seats in the back and the two older kids couldn't even get themselves buckled. Of course dh would not be caught dead in a minivan. He thought I should get a Lincoln. Actually that would be worse than the SUV b/c you need high test gas. The SUV is great in snow, surf fishing, camping, carpooling with other mom's. I'm just not driving anywhere anymore. I was going to go to IKEA this weekend, but it is not worth it. Sorry IKEA you lost about $200+.

Home Improvements: Can we all stop with the additions, new kitchens, sunrooms and new patio's, neighbors? I can not and will not keep up with the Jones'. Once one neighbor does something, everyone else has to copy in some way. Except me of course. I just paint another room. Maybe if we had tons of money laying around I would buy granite countertops, but my 1970's ugly yellow laminate still works. Actually you can cut with a sharp knife on it and it won't scratch. They just don't make laminate like they used to.

My Stomach: Ok I'm obsessed with this stomach of mine. What is wrong with it? Why is it so fat? I look like I'm pregnant. (see July 2005 "a tumor?") Here are the latest pictures I took.
Again letting it all hang out and sucking it. Well the breasts are much smaller. Yeah!! See the little fellow in the one shot, yeah that's the one...pushing me out of the way so he can climb something and do some damage somewhere. Actually what he is doing is going to the clothes hamper to put Thomas trains, masking tape (again me with the painting) deodorant, toothpaste in it. Why he can't pick up the clothes my dh leaves on the floor and put them in the hamper I will never know. Maybe it's inbred men skills?

Running: I'm getting quite excited for the 5k next week. My competitive spirit is starting to kick in. It's like 2nd nature if you were brought up in competitive sports. (for me it was swimming for 10 years) It's going to be interesting to run with/against other people. I hope I don't go out to strong or putter out b/c I'm trying to keep up with 8 mile-min people. Hope to get a pic of me running...i'm curious what I look like. Do I look like a strong woman? An athlete? A woman with a 39 year old body or a woman with a 30 year old body. If I wear a lycra top I will probably look like a pregnant woman starting her 2nd trimester.